Saturday, March 15th, 2008
So funny how we think about spiritual work sometimes…
Like it is a practice we can learn, or an impending event of ascension, or applied healing. Like it is a book we will write, and suddenly our wisdom will have been discovered and expressed. We will have done something with our gifts. It could be all of these things, but ironically you can do all of these things and still miss the heart of what we may really be here to share.
And it is much too simple, and goes almost entirely unseen…though its far-reaching impact always eventually comes back around…and becomes like a slow wave of bliss rising in our lives. For the true work of a spiritually-aware, mystical person…an Oracle or a Healer or a Master of any kind, is in little kindnesses. Not just the ones that are evident. I am including the true kindnesses that are sometimes hard to share. Sometimes to be truly kind we must be honest in a way that will not be well-received in the moment. For to only give the gift of your kindness when it looks nice or feels good is not true kindness. True kindness is something you have to search your heart for and be courageous to express. It seems to cost everything.
It is this courage that makes the heart of a mystic. This willingness and this fragile but undying hope. This desire to light a tiny flame on a dark night, regardless of whether your effort is known. The desire to do it for the sake of the light. It is a knowingness, deep in your bones, that will never be found that way anywhere outside of you…only reflected there as a reminder.
It is living by tiny glimmers of retribution at times, but cherishing them as the little nourishments on the hard passages of the path. It is loving those glimmers so much that we would be carried by them on the ocean of longing and doubt. These glimmers that are the moments we can see it all…what it has all been worth and the difference we have made, sometimes in something seemingly-inconsequential. It is a spontaneous and authentic compliment, listening to someone without judgment, allowing ourselves to be vulnerable in front of others, or reaching out a hand when no one else is there. It is saying what we have to when we are so afraid. It is about being who we really are, no matter what. It is about taking risks, and trusting against all odds. It is about looking beyond how things seem, and touching someone with love. It is about being able to send love…infinite love, without a return address.
It is about being gentle with yourself…treating yourself like the finest of creatures you have ever known…with reverence and incredible love. It is about doing something nice for yourself when you are so far in the hole there is no more sunshine left. It is about small steps and tiny gestures, and little acts of letting go. It is about letting love in.
It is about knowing that every challenge, every heartache, every moment of suffering you have ever known, has only made you a more beautiful and amazing resource to the others who will suffer and find solace in your expanded and infinite heart. It is about trusting that you do have this heart, and accessing the fire inside to share it. It is, definitely, about burning.
Never doubt that your tiny candle flame, just as much as your blaze, has made a million differences and continues to do so every day. And the more aware you are of this phenomenon, of being a keeper-0f-the-flame, the greater the amazing ripple effect becomes…for others around you and back to your own great heart.
We are here to do just that…keep that flame going inside, and relight the flames of others when they go out. And to do this we must be detached about how the light, how the fire, does its work. We are there simply to bear it…the way we bear our gifts…either as a burden or a triumph and a sacred blessing. Or some of both, as each day passes through its many cycles. But we all know we bear this flame, and that we came to do something with it. Just open your chest, trust yourself, and let it shine.
Here is to the greatness you give to this world…
Love,
Jennifer
