Sunday, May 14th, 2006

Some belief systems would tell you that desire is the root of all suffering, but I would not.

It is true that being attached to a specific outcome can be deeply painful, but desire keeps the heart of life beating. It was desire that caused the universe to want to explore itself, which led to our sitting here right now. It is my desire to write to you that makes this togetherness we are sharing. It is your desire to feel or know something deep within yourself that leads you to find these words today. We are brought to and from things in our lives by desire or lack of it. Yearning is holy, just as holy as attaining.

Desire is the fastest train in the universe and whether it takes us exactly where we thought it would or not, it keeps moving us and is fueled by the will of our hearts. We are not speaking of any old desire that walks into the saloon with an interesting face. We are talking about desires that burn from the soul. None is too small…any desire that truly burns from the soul has meaning, and a reason for being.

Even if this reason for being is to show us what we even want more deeply, the desire has led us somewhere important. We may indeed learn we do not want what we desired, but finding a truer, deeper calling is a treasure, and for that reason the road that brought us there is blessed, whatever pains we experienced upon it.

The more we desire something the more we pray, in whatever way each of us pray, and when we ask for something the beings and angels have even more ability to help us. Our yearning opens us to assistance even more deeply. It raises our magnetism and gives us energy to invest, encourages us to trust without thinking too hard about it. It asks us to lose inhibitions and take risks. For all of these reasons we want to be sure to always find out if our desires are of the soul, or simply addictions we are using to try to fill the void created when we try to leave our soul’s desires behind.

There are many reasons we leave these soul desires behind. Perhaps our parents taught us there were things we couldn’t have or do. Perhaps we had a dream but making money had to take priority to support oneself and one’s family, and the dream didn’t seem to accomplish both. Perhaps someone told us we weren’t any good at something we innocently loved. Perhaps we compare ourselves to others and always find fault in ourselves, and it holds us back from spreading our wings into the possibility of what our soul’s desire could become.

It is never too late to reconnect with the soul’s desire. Just watch what makes your heart light up, then try it, then just keep doing it over and over as long as your heart feels alive and excited. Some of these things you already do in your life, and some of them may be sort of tucked in the back of a drawer somewhere for the right day or time. Well I believe this is it. Perhaps take some time for yourself today and ask yourself what your heart truly desires in your life now, and see if you can find ways to let these desires blossom.

Tuesday, May 9th, 2006

There is a place within each of us where we hold back our light. We fear it is too bright, that it will blind the others around us and that then it may even be our fault that no one can see. We fear that if we shine our light we may find it less bright than we hoped. We take our deepest, richest, holiest gold and hide it deep in our hearts. If we come to love someone enough, we might show it to them. Certain situations just beg us to open our great box and let the rays of gold spill everywhere…but sometimes we count how many rays we let out at a time. We worry that we will have wasted them, or that they will run out.

What would happen if every day we just went a little further in our display of our gifts…even the thought of displaying them brings up all the issues of thinking of them like products. They are the product of our soul. Our souls produce this infinitely beautiful and rich light. But what if we did display them, not to cheapen or falsely exalt them, but with the same joy we display a beloved piece of art.

Would it mean that every day we were simply less afraid to dress more like we really want to, would it mean we would be less afraid to aim for a higher goal with our work or service in the world? Would we be less surprised by complements or opportunities that feel perfect for us? Once we’ve decided that whatever we fear we might have to lose is not as important as what we have to gain, we begin to taste the freedom.

What if we weren’t afraid that our brightest light would consume someone else’s? What if we didn’t hide our greatest jewels for that day we might need to use them, but drew from them every day….What if we always knew there was more than enough of our brilliance and beauty to last forever? Couldn’t it change our relationship with all forms of abundance in our lives?

I feel that this is an especially good time energetically to explore what it would be like to be yourself in technicolor…to add a bit of the immense flavor of your soul and its amazing potential to everything that you do and choose. A time to let a little more of who you are be seen, and to see the fruits of engaging that deeply in your life. Start with what you love most, and try making an agreement with yourself to do more of it. In doing so you naturally let the inner gold shine through, and that abundance flows into everything in your life.