Wednesday, April 24th, 2008 ~ Luxor, Egypt
(this is the continuation of a travel journal that begins with the April 18th entry further below.)
No matter how esoteric my other loves may be, I must admit I have an incredible weakness for an empty computer room with coffee and plenty of time to write in a country far away from home. Such luxuries…
As wordless as most of my reality and perception as an Oracle may be, it is words, especially when written, that somehow integrate those ethereal worlds with this one for me. Words tie them together and make lovely bridges accross beautiful rivers inside of me. Rivers I might otherwise be swept away on so much of the time. So when you add travel to the most exotic places in the world, and coffee, it just gets that much better.
I am in a one-day window between my experiences in the temples around Luxor and leaving for Cairo tomorrow. Two days in Cairo will then lead to our leaving Egypt for Greece…for Delphi. It is all too incredible to do at once. And I know I have done this voyage before. In fact I think many Oracles did. Egypt became hostile to those ways when the real power struggles began, and Greece still welcomed them.
Something I love most about both travel and writing is the perspective they afford. They are each an altered state all their own. They take you to a perch on a mountain somewhere and allow you to look down at what you think your life is, and who you think you are. They allow you, like so many other creative acts and surrendered states, to see it all in a different light, and to have a great deal more vision about where you want to head next. It lets you see your path more clearly…and change what you would like to. It removes you from the surroundings you usually live and operate in and reminds you that you are writing your own story, and that you can change the way you feel about it and see it at any time. It reminds you that you are not bound by the things you think you are, or in the way you believe yourself to be. These things create space. They let you breathe more deeply again, and become new again.
Who knew I would lead such an amazing life? I did, I guess. Once, Egypt was a far-off dream…a memory from ages ago in my soul. Now the temples are familiar to me the way places I grew up are familiar. It’s how they speak to me that so moves me. It is how they fill me with an energy one feels who is truly loved. It is how I don’t even walk when that feeling comes…I float, as if the primordial ocean has rushed in and filled the rooms and I have become one with its waves. And I don’t have to create this space. It has already been created for me…thousands of years ago. The memory is there.
All places are sacred, but those that have been acknowledged, honored and celebrated as such carry that memory…that vibration…and transmit and amplify it, like crystals. We were the last ones to leave both Abydos and Dedera temples yesterday, as the other people were with groups and were led out ahead of us by their group leaders. In fact, at Dendera we were down in the crypt (an underground hall beneath the temple) when the “crypt-keeper” (who was very nice as it happens : ) came down to tell us that the whole caravan was leaving. Being down there alone I had been able to hear the silence. The beautiful, resonant silence that seemed to beckon to one to go even deeper, and deeper, and deeper…
Singing and toning in the temples, as I have been able to so much in the past few days, it has felt as though the thousands of years had never passed. No more were the priestesses and priests a thing of the past…times merged and the lost times weren’t lost anymore. Yes, my friends, they are coming back, and you and I are going to live to see it. I wrote that in my book when I wrote about the “Return of the Oracle,” and every day I see it coming to be more and more. Don’t be distracted or disuaded by the things which make it seem untrue. That is what they are here to do…to distract and disuade. Keep your eyes on whatever brings you joy and makes you feel that home might indeed be here on this earth for you still…that there might be something so grand happening on this planet that it would be big enough to encompass all of who you are.
Because who you are is so vast…and I know it has been hard to fit in a little body in an even tinier context sometimes. But let me promise you that this life, this earth, this embodiment has so much bliss to yet offer you that it might be hard to comprehend from the place of pain so many of us have known so well, and even still know.
download Wind Just keep your little flame burning and know that the hardest moments where everything looks the darkest will pass. They always pass. Stay close to whatever brings back your faith and your joy. That is the only spiritual path worth taking. Draw near to whatever lights and feeds the glowing flame in your heart. Leave the rest behind. It is time…
I love you all and hope to write again soon…
Love, Jennifer
