Saturday, July 1st 2006
These days things are changing so fast that it is easy to get lost in the blur. We are all a part of an old mandala of sand that is being blown clear, and both the impermanence, and the impending new birth, are staggering.
When one needs energy for a great expedition, like the one we have entered on this earth, it must come from somewhere. Energetically we have so many options…nature, loved ones, communion with our guides, creativity…these are all excellent ways to tap into our limitless energetic resources and be re-inspired, re-centered and renewed for the trip.
But there are times when even these wonderful reminders seem distant, most significantly when we are feeling discouraged by what we see around us, and when others we have shared with are drifting away from us. At many crucial crossroads in our lives, we find that in order to walk our true path, we diverge from others we have walked with for a long time. Sometimes this leads us to associate the new path with loss, but there is also a promise in what sometimes seems like loss. It is the promise that there are new people waiting to enter our lives that match the vibration we have entered during our time of self-redefinition. There is also always the promise that we will meet again all the people we have truly loved, on one dimension or the next.
Sometimes some of the people in our lives are the last thing holding us back from what we are praying for. When our company does not reflect our dreams, the incongruency creates an energy block. This does not at all mean that there are times we just have to wait out and work through things with people, it just means that if there are people in our lives who we no longer truly commune with, or who do not celebrate us, it may be time to reevaluate what we have come to think of as friendship.
Sometimes it isn’t even an obvious rift or issue, but just a gradual parting of ways. I once dreamt that my best friend, at the time, and I were about to jump in and swim across a river. Halfway across I realized that she hadn’t jumped in with me and wouldn’t be coming. I knew I had to swim across anyway.
Sometimes we have to shed everything we have known in order to have everything we have dreamed of. If some friends exit our lives, we must know that it does not have to mean we must be on a solitary journey. It may just signify that we can use this more solitary period to pray and get more and more clear, and that when we are ready the new energies and friendships will be waiting for us. No matter how much we hear or read about letting go, it so often seems unnatural…as if we were born with clenched hands. The more we practice letting go, we find that rather than something to fear as related to loss, it is something to cherish as related to making space for new and even more fitting gifts. Because, as we all know deep in our hearts, we were born from the universe with open hands.
