Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
I know what it is like to have days become like moments that slip between your fingers…like paper that becomes brittle in your hands, almost dissolving with your touch. But I also know how much more powerful that makes the moments that we truly reclaim ourselves and our lives.
It is the spring equinox for many of us in the world today, and light is returning moment by moment now. The shift is evident. A few days ago the sun came out and the air became tepid and sweet. My backyard is filled with beaches and madrona trees…it is what I, deeply biased, believe to be the most beautiful back yard in the world. For months of the year it is uncomfortable to visit, and then, all of the sudden the ocean is glimmering with sunken jewels and I am somehow drinking from it. The madrona trees become lit from within and radiate a warmth like the sun, melting the hard places that braced themselves during the cold winter. Suddenly I don’t have to remember who I am, because everything around me is reminding me.
If we can live a life this way it is incredible, but since most of us don’t spend twenty-four hours a day meditating under a blanket of trees, it is a good thing that isn’t necessary. What is necessary, truly vital to the soul, is that we find out what nourishes, redeems, and reminds us of everything we care about…and that we visit those places, people, and things which hold that energy.
We want to lead abundant lives, and we pray for this regularly. We have, no matter where or how we live, somewhere in our lives or surroundings, something like a magic portal into another land. It is an enchanted land where dreams are real and you can be free. Most of us seal off the magic doorway either because we have been trained to, or because somewhere along the way we didn’t think we could spend time there and still live in the world and do what we needed to do.
I am here to say that we, as constantly re-awakening Oracles in this world, do indeed need our magic places where we can drink from the nectar of our remembering. We need places, or people, or things, which hold us and not just which we are holding together. We need places in our lives that are absolutely and completely effortless. Walking in the woods that day there was nothing missing, nothing unfinished, nothing lacking, nothing restrained. There was only freedom, and confirmation, and perfection.
Don’t be afraid to drink from the magic waters, and not just pray for them. Seek them out, even if you have denied yourself or feel that you have become numb…seek out that which still lights the flame in your heart and indulge in it. Make a picnic, bring a journal, have people you truly enjoy over for a circle of some kind, take a trip somewhere, make a new altar…find the space that is effortless, even if it begins as a slender crack you can barely fit through, and stay there until you open to it fully. There is no time like now to surrender to that which brings joy to your heart. May it be truly great…Love, Jennifer
