Jennifer Luna Posada
December, 2017

You know you still ache for it deep inside…

That fresh feeling a flower feels when it suddenly knows it is time to open…when new energy fills you and every moment is like a first morning in a magical land, precious and perfect and whole.  A feeling of falling in love with one’s life and the rightness of it…

But unbelievably hard times may have made you question that desire, and bury it, and quiet its whispers with coverings until you don’t remember it is there…

If that’s the case, I have good news.  This year we pull all the coverings away from that fresh, bright vitality you long to feel again.  This year we get naked in the most sumptuous way and it is all because we are coming full circle, at last…

Yes, 2018 is the year of coming full circle.  Many long chapters will be coming to a close, and new beginnings will flourish.  What major phases or cycles of your life could be coming to completion now?  What new ones would you like to begin?

In preparation for this year of coming full circle, this coming month, December 2017, is going to be one of the most amazing portals of letting go, casting off, and releasing that I have ever witnessed in this life.  The energies are ripe the way a fruit ready to fall from the tree is ripe.  We don’t even have to do anything to make these releases happen.  We just have to be able to make peace with all the fallen fruit, and trust the seeds within them will bring new beginnings.  And, if the energies feel peak for it for you individually, maybe even drink some honey wine and crawl beneath the tree of what you want most, and roll around in the fallen fruit.  Let it coat your body and feed you through your skin.  Nothing is truly lost, and it was time for that fruit to fall.  It’s okay if you can’t eat it all, or don’t want to.  It’s okay if your desires have changed, or if you don’t know what the new ones are.  Don’t worry about waste…nothing is wasted.  The old fruit lived a full life and informs the new seed.  It lives on in a new and even more pure and elegant expression of its essence.  Like you and I.

So cast off…cast off your inhibitions and the things you don’t love anymore.  Take the risk of unburdening yourself in whatever possible ways you can.  Clear out your garage or do that releasing ritual from your last relationship you know you so much need to do. Buy new sheets or a new piece of clothing or whatever you know it’s really time to refresh.  But, whatever else you do, donate, recycle, or throw away every possible item that weighs you down and holds you back.  Burn some things if needed.  Just get the layer of dust off of your life and your heart and get ready to shake the fuck free.  It’s time for your spine to move again, your lungs to fill again, and for life force to flow through you like music.

Again, because it matters so much, light a fire inside.  Light a fire and let things burn.  You know just what to put there…you know just what to set aflame and how to burst with light when you are freed from it.  And when you follow the first inkling about what to purge or cleanse, something else will reveal itself to you.  Follow the trail of release that opens up…one breadcrumb after another you will be guided…

All of this shedding and releasing in December will prepare you for 2018, the year of coming full circle.  And it’s not just one circle in your life that will come to completion this year, it is many at once.  It will be like a textured and orchestrated piece of music that is just about to come to one bright, blessed, consummatory note of resolve.

And then you will take such a sweet, deep breath, and start anew…

And this time you will start the dance with a different consciousness.  You won’t have the heavy bags you tried to dance with before, but you will keep the beautiful and weightless gifts of what they taught you.  This coming full circle is about one thing most of all: freedom.

So, look for new blossoms and new stirrings under frozen ground, and most of all: forget the rules. Forget the rules in your heart. 

Forget the rules that you bound it with…trying only to protect it.  The heart will show you its own organic, ever-shifting boundaries, and their sacredness.  But the rules that constrain you, and trap you in the fears of yesterday…love them, hug them goodbye, and when you are ready throw them right in the fire.  Make sparks, make wildfires, make moonfires and bloodfires and new universes with your awakening luminosity.  Shine all the rest away.

So, shed your skin bright one…slither and shimmy until the restrictive layer on your being and your life comes loose and slides off of you.  Let go of the people, places, projects, possessions, activities and influences that are making your wings heavy.  It’s all coming full circle again, and for the first time in many years you will feel the liberation of being so deeply complete, and a new chance at spilling into a sparkling, radical new life…

Just lay, soft, under the tree of your desires and let the old ones fall.  You don’t have to grab any of them.  Let them tell you secrets as you sleep there, and give you new dreams.  You will be shown the new way.  It will wake you from your slumber in a love so great it pounds in your heart and ripples out from your soul…and a sky of new stars will open itself to you, all yours for all time…

Love,

Jennifer

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Jennifer Luna Posada
October, 2017

So let go,

let go,

just dive in…

because there’s beauty in the breakdown…

~frou frou

We are all looking for the days of light.  The days of waking up to the pleasure of skin against sheets, silky and sweet…feeling the ease of breathing soft like the movement of lightest wings, unencumbered, organic…free.  Filled only with the ache of wanting to know another day, and no other ache.  No pressure against any part of us, and still hearing the faintest whispers of faeries in our ears from dreams of magic and promise.  The days of feeling each moment is an inspiration fulfilled, and that every step is in perfect rhythm with the beat of your heart…meant to be, flawless and shimmering like each moment of the life of the ocean…

I love those days, and every pulse of the blood through my veins carries their glow…but the path is winding, and I am not here to hail the days of light and flow today, but their precursors.  Their foundation, their sustenance, their nourishment, their catalyst, their beginning and their end, their mother and their lover and their very best friend.

I am talking about the dark days.  The days when you try to fall asleep at night hurting, body, mind and soul, or lost…not sure if you did anything that day right, anything that mattered, anything that led you somewhere better or truer.  I am here to remind you that every single day that you face, even the dark ones…especially the dark ones, moves you forward and toward healing release.  I know some days it seems like that couldn’t possibly be true.  Like you have been waiting in the same station for years and nothing has changed.  But you are not the same person you were when you got to that station.  You have changed a million times over.  You don’t even know yet that you have become a butterfly while you believed almost nothing moved.  I know you won’t feel it until the wind hits your wings.  I know I am only giving you words, but I have a strong message of hope today…

Wander the ancient forest within where it seems now perhaps that there are only fallen trees instead of new life…the ruins in your heart where there was supposed to be sparkle and joy and where you think everything has died, and maybe even that it is all your fault.  Wander there because soon it will be gone, but keep a candle going in your heart.  Keep even the tiniest of flames lit there, because as the darkness deepens even a glimmer of hope will become your new world.  If you think that the darkness couldn’t get deeper and can’t imagine more, just know that this isn’t a punishment or a bad dream…it’s how you will find the deeper glow you couldn’t otherwise see.  It is the way to the greatest gift you will ever know…

And so, if you know this…if what I am saying rings true in your heart…how can you best let go right now?  What is aching to be released in your life so that you can be unburdened?  Can you truly decide it is okay that you don’t have the answers now, and that you don’t have any kind of plan?  Can you trust your burning longing, or its absence, and that whether you “do it right” or not, you will meet exactly your most beautiful destiny?  Because there is no way to “do it right” right now.  Can you trust that it feels wrong right now in some ways, for a reason?  Can you fall into bed on the hard nights and let yourself hurt, and love yourself for just making it though the day…for breathing in and out over and over again?

This is a waiting time for some things.  Some things aren’t ready to be born, but if you can surrender to the pathless path, you will still go the right way…even with a blindfold on.  I talk a lot about “The Blind Oracle’s Path” as a way to describe the times when we can’t know what is next, and the messages aren’t clear because they aren’t supposed to be.  We are meant to find out what we will learn when we have to feel our way along in the dark, never sure how the space we move through will change.

As I wrote that I flashed back to being about eight years old, my eyes glued to the TV as Luke learned to use the force in Star Wars.  His eyes were covered and he had to feel his way.  We too have to feel our way now more than ever.  We need not to rely on old ways of sensing, practical summaries, or pre-planned steps.  We are uncovering buried instincts that will lead us directly to the holy of holies in our lives, in our bodies, in our very souls.  It is time for more of our soul wisdom to enter into our conscious awareness than ever before.  It wants to take a special route…along a dark river that runs right through the underworld of our being…washing us, and nourishing us.  For it to do that, we have to get out of the way as best we can, and let the darkness roll through…

I know we have been taught to do anything but that.  And if it feels like letting the darkness roll through would be dangerous to you or others around you, please reach out to someone to get support.  But even if you aren’t worried about actual endangerment it is very important to know where your touchstones are…to have support.  Since this is a time when touchstones have been scattered and you may not know where to look, think of holding that small sweet flame of hope in your heart.  Find anything that reminds you of it…autumn leaves, birds singing and puffing up against the cold, a beautiful writing, a hot cup of tea, the soft face of a friend…absolutely anything that comforts you as you let so much fall away.

This is a time of deep detoxification, happening on many levels…the energies are primed for it on a planetary level, and we are feeling it both energetically and physically.  That means as we surrender our bodies are detoxing too.  It means it is a wonderful time to drink plenty of water, eat clean foods if it feels right, and do whatever other detox rituals you love (this is deeply personal right now, so check in with yourself and what feels right, but it can be as simple as moving around more, having a sauna, or getting more rest…)

Just as importantly, know that this time will pass.  There will be breakthroughs.  Things will feel lighter and freer, and you will finally feel the new flowing through.  This process, rather than distracting from that state, insures it.

That means in the worst moments when you are sure everything is all wrong, you can remind yourself that this too is meant to be.  We know this, but every reminder is a blessing…because with every breath that we remember that truth, our insides can let go a little more.  We can feel held by the universe instead of gripping every muscle against a storm we are sure is going to take us down.

And hell yes, sometimes we know it’s time to fight it.  And sometimes it’s time to let it take us down.

You can do this, love.  I can already see the beautiful color of your wings peeking out.  It is the same for me.  I can see the bright fire and the new life.  I can see you shaking off the decaying leaves when the time is right, and the deeper soil you will be fed by after that.  You are going for those deeper minerals…you are diving further into the darker soils now that carry those more authentic memories and desires your soul left there so long ago for you to find…the ones that have been aging with a truer love than you knew before you buried them there to let them germinate.  And then here will be silky mornings and bright days, and they will be beautiful too.  By the time you are back to them you will love all the days for what they are…each a leaf of a different color, each with a different gift…each leading you to more beauty, and healing, and love.  But now you will be able to open your arms to them so freely…like a child.  You won’t have to carry all the things you still carry now.  Those things will be gone and there will only be starshine on warm nights inside, and that sweeter glow you found beneath everything.

I love you.

love,

Jennifer

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