Sunday, December 9th, 2012

I know it hurts.  You have stretched beyond what you thought you could…your skin is paper thin, and your bones ache from the pressure it has taken to grow beyond your original design.  You have become something more than you ever knew you could…even at the birth of your soul such a very ancient time ago…just a moment ago and a time before time…a soul’s dream ago and a reckoning away, yet.

For we won’t know the beauty of the changes we have made until the storm passes, and right now though we have felt it’s early rumblings and wild flurries, we are just seeing the heart of it looming on the horizon of our being, and of the world.  We’ve already been destroyed.  This isn’t our first storm.  Not even close to it.  We’ve already been torn apart, and sometimes may feel too tired to even find the pieces of who we were…it has been exhausting us and we are finally giving up.  Only in this act are we now finding that we don’t even need the pieces anymore.  We just need a thin breath, a heartbeat, and now…

We are in the midst of the greatest transformational time on our planet…the birth of the new world…and we have undergone so many labor pains already to get to this point that we can’t even push anymore.  We are wondering what’s wrong with us, judging ourselves harshly for not trying harder, not being stronger, not having any more answers…giving up.  When really that is just what we are meant to do now.

Oh, don’t worry…this kind of giving up doesn’t mean we have to let go of our dreams and hopes…though that may happen as we shed like fall trees all the last leaves of what is old and no longer needed when we walk forward, naked, into our bright new day.  We may molt those dreams and desires that are not shiny enough to reflect the stars…to hold fire.  Those need to go so we can make room for what is better that we haven’t even imagined yet, or dared ask for.

We know this inside…deep inside.  But the voice from that place is muffled.  It is buried under all the hopes we had last time the storm passed and we thought the clear skies would open up right then and welcome us into feeling fully at home in our lives and our bodies again.  All the hopes we shoved down when that didn’t happen, or when that peace and joy only visited us for moments…teased us before being swallowed up by the next place of challenge and change.  Some days are better than others…some days we aren’t sure this change is even leading us anywhere wonderful at all.  We spin and our compasses are useless.  But that is what storms are for.  To throw us off balance and make us find new ways of moving inside…to push us to break through and let go.  And we, who chose to live in this time, are some of the bravest of all.  We are the surfers who saw a wall of a wave coming and said yes…I want that one.  I want to ride that one.  It might throw me down and break me a few times, but when I ride it, it will be the greatest feeling of them all.  I will, finally, be totally free.

And after all…since you have been through it all already, what’s one more storm?  You already know what to do.  You know when it is time to climb down below decks on your boat and curl up in the blankets while the wild waves rock you, and you know when to stand at the prow of your boat and dare it to find you…because you know the fierce and wiry will you have found on the darkest nights.  You know the place that can’t be shaken even when you don’t know yourself at all anymore, or you will soon.  That is the beginning place.  That is where we touch the throbbing heart of the universe, and start new.

But I know you may not feel that yet.  You are still in the midst of the whipping winds and rising waters, rushing over everything left in your heart and washing things away faster than you can decide if you want to let them go.  I know the stir is enough to make you crazy, though on the good days you can hardly feel it at all.  But while you feel all of this, and wonder if it will ever be worth it all…if it will ever all be redeemed, I want to offer you a new picture of how beautiful you look right now…

You are like the woman in this picture.  Chained to a rock wall while the ocean is rising and the winds have disrobed you completely.  Your compromised position is the gift.  It is the place that tells you there is nothing more to do…nothing more to try for.  There is only one path left…surrender and trust.  Let the ocean come.  Find out what happens then.  Leave it to the deeper wisdom of your soul…leave it to your own wise fate.  You showed up…that’s all you needed to do.  Now just let go…just surrender.  And then, like the woman in the painting, your face will be lit with grace.  And everything will be perfect just as it is.  And only good can come.  And you, like the birds in the background, will eventually fly free.

Just wait.  It’s all happening perfectly, and you’ve done it just right.  Just wake up each morning and face the day, putting one foot in front of the other…without answers, without a plan for how to make it all work…for how to make it all feel okay again.  It isn’t time yet, but it all will come.  Let the ocean have you…it will only give you back everything you’ve been missing…even the things you forgot you needed.  You’re going to wake up one day soon and be able to breathe again…in a way you didn’t know you could.  And you will notice that, in their own time, the skies opened up after all…

Love You, Jennifer

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Eclipse Energies Message, Fall 2012

Sunday, November 11th, 2012

This is the moment, knees to the earth and toes in the mud, to say it…

This is the moment to ask for what you want.  This is the warm, wet mud to plant seeds in, even if only with small and whispered words in the dark night.  This is the moment to acknowledge whatever your heart wants now…not what it wanted last year or yesterday, but right now on today’s fresh horizon.  This is the moment to ask for what you want now that the storm has passed and washed you clean of the old ideas about your life.  This is the moment in the aftermath to find the golden pearl of what was untouched, glowing and whole…to find the deepest desires your heart has ever known…

About a year ago I wrote a prophecy message about this year and the most essential part of it being your heart’s desire.  I said that it is the desire in your heart that will birth the new world.  Now, with this month’s two eclipses, November 13th and 28th, we usher in the most powerful time of this prophecy’s unfolding.  Everything that has happened this year thus far has been leading you to this window in the next several weeks through the end of the year, where your heart’s desires will be revealed to you.  You may not know them yet.  You may feel far from desire or a willingness to welcome it.  But you will know.  It has been building like a far-off wave that will suddenly rise before you…huge and unignorable.  What I will suggest for this time of eclipse energies, swelling toward the Solstice and Mayan shift date on December 21st, 2012 is twofold…one, ask…wish upon a star, to really know what you want next, and two, when the wave comes…don’t run.  Let it rush over and consume you.  Become a part of the ocean again.  It will nourish you and lead you down your next path.  It will be your own energy enveloping you, and you will finally feel yourself again the way you haven’t in perhaps many years, or even many lifetimes.

Eclipses are always powerful portals of transformational energy, and in this case they are ramping us up toward December 21st, opening new levels of awareness and revelation to us to prepare us for that time of great change within.  I recommend making the most of these supportive energies by taking time in the next two weeks to do some reflection.  If you are able to, you could take a short retreat in a beautiful, natural environment to do this, but if that is a luxury right now there are many other equally powerful ways to do this.  One is to make sure you have an hour or two to yourself at least once during this time, preferably twice, and simply spend it really focusing on what you desire right now.  Write it down, or use images or draw pictures.  But whatever you do, really search your heart.  Don’t just jump to old conclusions about what you want.  Press the edges and find the places of deep longing that you may have shut off or given up on long ago, or perhaps have never visited because you imagined them impossible or too grand to accept.  Touch the sore spaces of yearning and find out what they want to say.  Maybe they need to sing or cry.  Maybe they want you to write about them, or paint about them, or move your body in their name.

And if you don’t have two hours or never end up making that kind of time, there is another option.  Just wait for that starry night or soft, glowing moon and ask to be shown, right in the midst of your daily life, exactly what you need to in order to open to what your desires might be wanting to tell you, or where they want to lead you.  They know a secret path you haven’t seen yet, and that your life feels empty without.  If nothing comes and you are drifting in desire-less waters, just wait.  Be as soft as you can with yourself and get close to the sound of your own heart.  It will speak to you eventually, when the time is right.  And you will be ready.

If your desire is something you fear, you are likely in just the right place.  It is time to embrace the desires that push us to those places that scare us, stir things up and bring in new paradigms.  We cannot create the new world if we cling to the old, and despite all our worries, at the deepest level we have nothing to lose.  Everything we will shed we will be so glad to be free of.  The watered-down versions of our desires will only hold us back.

The key, the one we have been searching for endlessly, is right there on the table where we’ve been afraid to look.  The one with the red velvet covering.  The table we were told not to go near.  The key we thought couldn’t possibly fit.  It will open all the doors but we must be willing to claim it…to make it our own.  We must dare to know our own passions, to simply, when they approach again in the dark, cold night, open the door and welcome them in.  That is all.  And knock again, they will.

Just nestle into your favorite chair by the window, pull on your fuzziest blanket, get out your notebook or sketchbook…and dream.  What if the future were beautiful and bright?  What if you deserved every bit of joy you could imagine?  What would you ask for?  What lights you up inside, and makes you tingle?  Reach as far out as you need to…out on the limb where the fruit is sweetest.  Dare to trust enough just to even peek through the silk fabrics around your heart…dare just enough to see what is illumined within.

That way when the boat rocks and you begin to wonder what you are even doing as the shifts rumble across the planet and through your heart, you will know exactly where that light burns, and how to come from that place as you are born anew.  Can you handle the thought of having the life you actually want?  The thought of dreams coming true?  Is it more scary than the thought of things staying the same?  It’s okay…you can take your time getting used to these ideas.  Though they are of our home and true nature, we have been so long out of those waters that we have learned to breathe on land and are perhaps afraid we might drown.  So if we don’t want to run from the waves, we can start now preparing by just putting our toes in the water…wiggling them around…deciding maybe that isn’t so bad…that maybe we could learn to really accept feeling that good again after all…that we really could feel right in our own skins again, in our bones, right in our bodies and right in this world.  That there is nothing we need to be punished for, and that we could be cherished instead.  Cherished by the loving universe, cherished by others…cherished by ourselves.

I love you.  I see you, shiny star.  I know you will find that flame that burns through everything that would dim or hold it back.  I know your heart’s desire will carry you through any storm, and help reveal to you where to safely let your foot fall in the dark night, with each step.  I know your ray of light will illuminate the world, a world you can belong to…a world of joy.

Just make a little wish upon a star…any wish…just close your eyes and ask…

Love, Jennifer

Read Jennifer’s related 2012 Prophecy Message on heart’s desire Here

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